I have a dream. This time I’m going after it and I am almost not afraid! Here is an article that talks about life, our path and dreams!
Going towards self-discovery, or to self-creation as some prefer to say, is a tortuous path and I know it painfully well now. In fact, our whole life we are on our way. And it all starts when we are born and from the process of creation on.
The first section of my life, which for the sake of simplicity we are going to say is until 40 years of age, now seems to me, in hindsight, like a path travelled with the blinders down, but not to say blindly.
I went to school to learn about life, I learned a trade to earn money, I got married to start a family and I bought a house to support it. And here I am, 40 years of age.
And what about now? Uh, I’ve always had those goals. In hindsight I realize that I lived the first half of my life with the blinds down because all my actions, all my goals were 100% dictated by society. And yes, this includes going to school, studying, working, making babies …
But once all of this is done, what else does life bring us? This is when the midlife crisis can being.
For my part, and as I always did, I looked outside of the me for what could be my next 40 years. I can’t imagine continuing my life as it was – metro, boulot, dodo (a French sassing to talk about our boring routine). But it can’t be just that, is that what is life?
I divorced, and then I flirted, a little, a lot, passionately, and then that too started to get boring. I then understood that I was looking outside for what was not lingering inside.
So begins the long path of introspection with all these existential questions. And then I got to my discovery. I started defining some important questions – Who is Simone? , What are my values?, What are my qualities and where am I lacking?, What is me and what is society, my parents, my teachers, my friends , my bosses ? …
What I realize today is that when I was looking for life on the outside, I always lived in the “when I have that, I would settle”. And I might surprise you but I made the same realization even when looking inside. I still lived in this “when I have that, I will be settled” – the outside.
There are people who naturally live in a simple way, living day by day and taking them one after the other as they come. They have this innate ability to just be content with what is and to become in total acceptance. I think these people are the happiest, simply because they live in the moment.
Well, I’m not one of those people, and I know a lot of you, dear readers, aren’t part of them either.
So I made a decision. I may not be one of those people, but nothing prevents me from being inspired and copying them. Eckhart Tolle’s bestseller “The Power of the Present Moment” helped me with learning this.
For a few days I had been having a new dream that tickled me – a professional dream, a big dream, a dream that I wanted to achieve. To tell the truth, I already had it a year ago, but I put it aside and laid it to rest, as I read it too big, too ambitious, too expensive, too much for me.
Today, as I have grown up thanks to my inner journey, my work on myself, my patience with myself, with life, I feel ready to embark on this path.
Through sharing these few lines, I would like to make a commitment – not to let myself be impressed by the greatness of my dream and to dare and believe in myself.
And as it is a long-term project, I will also want to forge a commitment, as to not forget how to live like these people who know the joys of life, that is to say, to remember to rejoice every day for being in here now and fully enjoy what it brings me on a daily basis.
Ah, how great it is to grow up!
Thank you for listening to me. You too, don’t forget to live!
With love.
